i guess if someone doesn't love you back, it isn't such a crime.

but there's a fine, fine line between love and a waste of time.

wow. i haven't felt alone in three years. but now i do. it feels like going through a breakup, except that it's not one.

i hate that everything i think, say, do or feel is wrong, and must be disregarded.

i hate feeling like an unwanted burden.

i hate feeling that everyone else gets things i want. i hate feeling ungrateful for what i have now, but i DO feel terrible. i can't believe i feel terrible for feeling terrible. feh.

i hate knowing that i don't have to live this way, but that i still do.

i hate feeling that happy endings are for other people.

i hate feeling hopeful when things stay the same or turn for the worse.

i wish i could get out of here.